Random Musings

Announcement!

If you're following me on Twitter then you already know about this. I've finally set up my new blog! You can find me here:

http://www.joleystar.com

I'll be deleting this blog soon because I imported all of the content from here and my other blogs to the new one. :) Holla at me at the link above. Let me know what you think! :)

Peace... Dee.xoxo

Circus - Spotlight on me and I'm ready to break

A few of my not so favorite faults:

- I am a drama queen. It sucks. If I were outside of my own body as I am acting up, I would cringe. I hate that I escalate minute things into world-ending events. You know what the funniest thing is? After each 'world-ending' problem, I realize that the world keeps turning.

Solution: Stop sweating the small stuff... Why? Because Stewie said so...

- Indecisiveness. I'm a water sign (Cancer) and I know we're supposed to go with the flow and all, but it frustrates me that I have such issues with making any decision.

Solution: Make a priority list (done!) and base decisions upon aforementioned list.

- Self-centeredness & such. Have you ever wanted to be the best at something? I have. And at everything too. It's taking a lot of courage to even admit that to the whole world, but there it is. I have this insane desire to be numba ONE. Afterwards, I have these horrid tantrums when I get reminded that someone will always be better, get better, or is already the best at something.

Solution: See # 1. --- Ok, but no seriously... I've been doing some massive over-analyzing on this for the past 20 something odd years & this morning I came away with an epiphany. Yes, of course it was today. As I was stepping off the train onto the platform in Penn Station I had a revelation. Let me be real here... this may not have been the first time I've had this revelation, but by good golly miss molly, this will be the time that I pay attention and listen. Oh yeah, so this revelation... after reading books upon books & perusing inspirational blog after inspirational blog, I've come to realize that I should just be happy being me. Let's face it. There will always someone that's going to be better than me. And as years go by, that person will be bested by someone and so forth and so on. But my previous faux pas has been to concern myself with that other person. Hah - I've been concerning myself with what other people think of me for years. It's the way I was raised. What I am basically trying to get at is that I should just concern myself with me. No one else. Forgive a little slang, but I just gotta do me. If I do the best that I can for me & I'm not hurting anyone else, than I will be content. My boyfriend also pointed out something to me over the weekend in regards to concerning myself with what other people are thinking of me. As long as I've got him and my loved ones support then those others out there should not matter. And really, is there any other reason why I love this man so much? ♥

That's my story and I'm sticking to it.

Dee.xoxo

LD 2009

It's the last day of labor day weekend and what am I doing? Sitting in front of my compuer trying to recover from a massive emotional breakdown. I spent a good hour or two last night crying on my boyfriends shoulder dealing with hurt & disappointment. It wasn't just anything in particular... rather it was a mish mosh of life in general.

Today, as I type - my thoughts are surprisingly not running a mile a minute. I feel calm albeit groggy from so much crying. I've written down on paper my priorities and will be reading them everyday before I go to bed at night and before I get out of bed in the morning. Just as a reminder. I need it. 

H cooked breakfast for us yesterday. I like to fondly call this masterpiece the 'H omelette'...

eggs, turkey, tomato, and fat free cheese

caramelized onions with cajun seasoning... YUM

whole wheat bread

plated

We also had a barbecue at my aunt's place... before we got there though, we decided to play around with my camera again...

Supah Star!!!

It wouldn' be a party without a Starbucks visit...

LOL!

I created a little slideshow below of all the pictures I took yesterday... I love it!

Labor Day Weekend in Slideshow (with Music) from Maria Diana Deleon on Vimeo.

Dee.xoxo ♥

I love pictures...

Happy Saturday...!

I just finished updating my weight loss blog with food stuffs & a recently made purchase, so I figured I would update this one too.

Before we left though, H & I took some random pictures and basically just goofed around. I felt like sharing so, here goes:

*note to self: let this be a reminder of how much more I've got to go on this weight loss journey. I've been so complacent lately & I need to re-focus on my goal. 40 lbs down, 40 more lbs to go.

Dee.xoxo

Why This Friday Rawks...

Hi Bloggy Reading Peoples! Today has been such a splendid day already. I’m super happy & feeling very blessed…

 

• this past week, my boyfriend has been spoiling me with rides to the train. Usually I have to walk to the train everyday. I love it!
  

• today’s train ride was smooth, seamless, & comfortable. the train conductor was friendly and smiled at + thanked every single person that was on the train. oh yeah… I had 4 seats all to myself. Bliss, I tell you.
  

photo taken by backfirecptn

• listening & rocking out to my favorite song at the moment…

 

The Saturdays – ‘Forever Is Over’

 

• leaving work at 3PM today…

• 3 day weekend!

photo by 101ofawolf.blogspot.com

Hope you all have a lovely weekend as well! I can’t wait to vegge out and just chillax.

 

Dee.xoxo